Friday, June 18, 2010
Where Is My Treasure Really?
Now I am not typically someone who hoards things she doesn't need and shopping sprees are not part of my routine (I think I may be in the small minority of women who hate to shop). Despite that fact though, if I really take stock of my self and my habits, I can find some earthly treasure starting to build up, and they are not always secular, material things either. I mean really, how many prayer cards and spiritual books do I need to collect!
Now things in themselves are not necessarily bad; Jesus wasn't saying they were. He was simply trying to get His disciples, us among them, to see that the earth and all its things will pass, but the things of heaven will not.
When I really take a cold, hard look at myself and the things around me, I can see that I still have many earthly attachments.
One of the more amusing ways that God likes to show me this is through my Magnificat devotional. I can not tell you how many times and in how many places I have left the darn thing! And even more crazy is the lengths I have gone to to go back and retrieve it! I have left it in church and gotten all the way home and then gone back to church in hopes that it would still be there. I have left it in the Adoration chapel and after arriving home after 1AM have seriously thought about going back for it. I love having my Magnificat and take it almost everywhere with me, and this is certainly not a bad thing, but in the end all it is is a book; one, I might add, which will expire at the end of each month. Every time I go in hot pursuit of this little book, I have to grin a bit, because I can just see Jesus and the Father looking at each other, then looking at me and rolling their eyes.
When I get right down to it, all I really need and want is God~ Jesus in the Eucharist; that is my true treasure and where my heart wants to be. It is just amazing that even though I say this and truly desire it to be, how many things I allow to distract me.
I add with a note of caution to this that sometimes it is not just things that we "store up" on this earth, but people and relationships as well. The commandment Jesus gave us is love God and neighbor, and I have a feeling He meant in that order. Again in my own life, especially after my return to my faith, I began to see clearly that there were relationships that were not healthy and did not bear fruit. While I am not one to simply write people off, some relationships have been more to glorify me or the other person and not God. So the relationship needed to end, but the people remain in my prayers.
I leave you with this quote from a reflection by Blosius the Venerable (yes it from Magnificat :) ) It seems to sum up what I have been trying to say here.
"The spiritual man must learn to leave himself and all other things for the love of God. He must possess nothing with any tenacious affection of heart.He must hold fast to no visible and perishable thing, to no passing and created object... He must remember that not only bad things, but even those that are good may become hindrances if they are loved or sought inordinately..."
In our quest for treasure we really need look no further than the the Sacred Heart of Our Lord present in the tabernacle.
Psalm 45: Canticle of Love to the King
My heart overflows with a good theme;
I address my verses to the King;
My tongue is the pen of a ready writer.
You are fairer than the sons of men;
Grace is poured upon Your lips;
Therefore God has blessed You forever.
Gird Your sword on Your thigh, O Mighty One,
In Your splendor and Your majesty!
And in Your majesty ride on victoriously,
For the cause of truth and meekness and righteousness;
Let Your right hand teach You awesome things.
Your arrows are sharp;
The peoples fall under You;
Your arrows are in the heart of the King’s enemies.
Your throne, O God, is forever and ever;
A scepter of uprightness is the scepter of Your kingdom.
You have loved righteousness and hated wickedness;
Therefore God, Your God, has anointed You
With the oil of joy above Your fellows.
All Your garments are fragrant with myrrh and aloes and cassia;
Out of ivory palaces stringed instruments have made You glad.
Kings’ daughters are among Your noble ladies;
At Your right hand stands the queen in gold from Ophir.