Longing For The Giver
The Meditation for the Day in Magnificat this morning was one of those reflections that seemed to draw me to it more than once, and with each prayerful reading, I seemed to receive more and something different from it.
The reflection is a prayer from the prayer book of the Armenian monk and mystic St Gregory of Narek. The title of the prayer book is Speaking With God From the Depths of the Heart. The particular prayer in Magnificat this morning is from the saint's Prayer no. 12, Bedtime Prayer.
I did not know anything about St Gregory of Narek, but after reading his beautiful prayer that speaks of yearning not so much for God's gifts but for God Himself, I wanted to know a little more about him. I found this wonderful site dedicated to his prayers.
This prayer is a wonderful reminder that God, the giver of all good gifts is Himself, the greatest gift of all. How blessed are we His creatures to be receivers of Him and all His gifts.
A little added side note on St Gregory of Narek~ he is also one of the saints on the list to be named a Doctor of the Church in the near future. After reading some of his beautiful prayers, I can see why.
Here is part of the Bedtime prayer. You can read the prayer in full, along with his other prayers by clicking on the link above.
Prayer No. 12: Bedtime Prayer
Not only do I call, but I believe in the Lord’s greatness.I pray not only for his rewards but also for himself, the essence of life, guarantor of giving and taking of breath without whom there is no movement, no progress, to whom I am tied not so much by the knot of hope as by the bonds of love.
I long not so much for the gifts as for the giver.
I yearn not so much for the glory as the glorified.
I burn not so much with the desire for life as in memory of the giver of life.
I sigh not so much with the rapture of splendor as with the heartfelt fervor for its maker. I seek not so much for rest as for the face of our comforter.
I pine not so much for the bridal feast as for the distress of the groom, through whose strength I wait with certain expectation believing with unwavering hope that in spite of the weight of my transgressions I shall be saved by the Lord’s mighty hand and that I will not only receive remission of sins but that I will see the Lord himself in his mercy and compassion and receive the legacy of heaven although I richly deserve to be disowned.