Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Grateful For His Most Precious Gift


Today marks an anniversary of sorts for me. It was seven years ago today that I returned to Mass after being away for almost 20 years. That Sunday in November came at the end of six months of prayerful preparation and a weekend that truly changed my life. (The details of all of this can be found in my reversion story- see sidebar)
From that Sunday forward I knew that I was "home" and had no desire to ever leave again. God had poured so many graces upon me and I was and am grateful for them all, but the one that I am most grateful for is the most precious gift of His Son Jesus in the Holy Eucharist.
This gratitude has taken on more meaning these last few days because due to a bout of the flu, I have not been able to attend Mass. This was the first Sunday I have ever missed Mass in these last seven years, I had to forgo my hour of Adoration this week , and daily Mass has also not been possible. It has been in these days of being unable to receive Jesus in this sacrament that I have realized just how precious this gift is and how grateful I am for the privilege of being able to receive Him so often. It made me think of those who live in areas where there is no priest on a regular basis, or those who live in places where they are persecuted for their faith and can not worship freely. I am truly blessed!
God permits all things and so I have been trying to see the lesson He has for me in all of this. Perhaps in these few short years I have begun to take Him for granted and the deprivation would help me to realize just how precious this gift is~ it has. I also need to thank Him more for all He has given for me; this awesome sacrament comes at the price of His very life for me.
Now all of that may or may not be the case, but I am sure of two things: One~absence definitely does make the heart and soul grow fonder, and Two~this minor illness has given me something to offer Our Blessed Lord.
I may not have planned to spend this anniversary in this particular way, but in one of His special ways, our Lord has given me a beautiful gift~the gift of greater gratitude for the gift of His very Self.
The shortest path to Jesus is through our Blessed Mother, so I would like to end this post with this Prayer of Thanksgiving I found by St Cyril of Alexandria.

Thanksgiving Prayer To Our Lady
O most holy Lady, Theotokos, light of my poor soul, my hope, my protection, my refuge, my comfort, and my joy! I thank you for having enabled me to be a partaker of the most pure Body and most precious Blood of your Son. Enlighten the eyes of my heart, O Blessed One who carried the Source of Immortality. O most tender and loving Mother of the merciful God; have mercy on me and grant me a repentant and contrite heart with humility of mind. Keep my thoughts from wandering into all kinds of distractions, and make me worthy always, even to my last breath, to receive the most pure Mysteries of Christ for the healing of my soul and body. Give me tears of repentance and thanksgiving that I may sing of you and praise you all the days of my life, for you are ever-blessed and praised. Amen.

12 comments:

Colleen said...

Beautiful post. Happy anniversary. Feel better soon! God bless. and hugs!

Anne said...

"In all circumstances give thanks for this is the will of God for you in Christ Jesus." 1 Thes 5:18

This is today's alleluia verse, how appropriately your post matches it! God's ways are always wonderful even and sometimes especially when we can't understand it. In your inability to attend Mass and receive Jesus, God showed you how much he wants you there by allowing you to miss Him so much.

I pray you will be back to good health soon!

Karinann said...

Colleen-thank you for the well wishes and hugs.
Anne- Today is the first day I was able to go to Mass (although probably shouldn't have). I smiled when I read that verse in my Magnificat. Like I sais in my post, at the very least God has given me something to offer Him.

Thanks ladies and God bless!

Gabriella said...

I read and re-read your reversion story all the time. You've really been blessed and can understand how grateful you are for being loved by Our Lord is such a special way :)

I will keep you in my prayers today.

Patricia Cecilia said...

Karinann, I give thanks that you are on the mend. Just yesterday, searching the Internet for a specific piece of chant, I took a byway that brought me to this quote from Cardinal Newman, which speaks very specifically to my present struggle:

Therefore I will trust Him. Whatever, wherever I am, I can never be thrown away. If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve Him; in perplexity, my perplexity may serve Him; if I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve Him. My sickness, or perplexity, or sorrow may be necessary causes of some great end, which is quite beyond us. He does nothing in vain; He may prolong my life, He may shorten it; He knows what He is about. He may take away my friends, He may throw me among strangers, He may make me feel desolate, make my spirits sink, hide the future from me—still He knows what He is about.

I ask not to see—I ask not to know—I ask simply to be used. ("Meditations on Christian Doctrine", I. Hope in God - Creator, (2) 3.)

Let us press on to the high calling. Thank you for the encouragement your posts provide.

Karinann said...

Gabriella- thank you for your kind words. I always feel blessed when someone is touched in some way by my story- whether it is in my reversion story here or when I am asked to give my post-abortion witness talk. I am humbled and amazed by all that God has done in and for me.
Thanks too for the prayers.

Patricia- I love this quote. I think I may add it to the others in my blog header.It is indeed a high calling and one worth striving for. I'm glad you find encouragement in my posts.

~ Judy ~ said...

You are just an awesome woman Karinann.
Your story gives me SUCH HOPE in life.
And when dark times come, you remind me that though Our Lord might seem distant...it is I who have turned back, NOT HIM...and He will ALWAYS wait for me with open arms...thank you my friend.
I tried to reply to your email last night and again this morning...but I'm getting a note saying you have blocked my IP address :( ???

Karinann said...

Judy,
Thank you my friend, but the awesome is ALL Him :)

HeartfeltHeartLook said...

Wonderful Karinann!!! Congrats ~ hope you are better. The heart does grow fonder. :)

Karinann said...

Thanks Miss Heartfelt! Think I'm on the mend :)

Mary333 said...

I hope you are fully recovered from the flu. I have added your grandfather to my prayer list. 100 years old, amazing! I am sorry for your loss, but glad that he had a peaceful passing. May God bless you. I, too, have read your reversion story and was profoundly touched by it. Thank you for a wonderful blog:)

Karinann said...

Mary,
Thank you for the prayers for my grandfather. My flu is pretty much gone and I feel much better than last week. Thanks too for the kind words about my reversion story and my blog.

Closing Prayer

Psalm 45: Canticle of Love to the King

My heart overflows with a good theme;
I address my verses to the King;
My tongue is the pen of a ready writer.
You are fairer than the sons of men;
Grace is poured upon Your lips;
Therefore God has blessed You forever.

Gird Your sword on Your thigh, O Mighty One,
In Your splendor and Your majesty!
And in Your majesty ride on victoriously,
For the cause of truth and meekness and righteousness;
Let Your right hand teach You awesome things.
Your arrows are sharp;
The peoples fall under You;
Your arrows are in the heart of the King’s enemies.

Your throne, O God, is forever and ever;
A scepter of uprightness is the scepter of Your kingdom.
You have loved righteousness and hated wickedness;
Therefore God, Your God, has anointed You
With the oil of joy above Your fellows.
All Your garments are fragrant with myrrh and aloes and cassia;
Out of ivory palaces stringed instruments have made You glad.
Kings’ daughters are among Your noble ladies;
At Your right hand stands the queen in gold from Ophir.